CurlyDollTati #164

                                                     Pretty For Me

     You may think that I get pretty for you, but I get pretty for me. When I dress for myself I feel refreshed, motivated, and comfortable. When I dress for you, I feel not good enough, not myself, and uncomfortable. 
    There are a lot of reasons why I dress for myself. If I am having a day off from work or school, I can wear whatever I want to wear. If I plan on staying in the house all day I get dressed as soon as possible so I can feel productive.  If I didn’t take a shower the night before, I will take one as soon as I finish walking my dog and eating breakfast. The feeling of the water massaging my skin in the shower really gets my blood to circulate and makes my mind feel awake.  I am able to bring a more productive flow. There is nothing like the feeling of dry armpits and moisturized legs. I pull over my head a soft, airy blouse. I put on my cozy yoga pants. I slip my sweet smelling feet into warm and dry socks. I make myself a hot cup of tea on a cold winter day. I feel comfortable and motivated. My hoodie is my shell where I can feel safe.  I feel motivated to plan my day out.  If I decide to go outside and put on a pink dress with no shoulders, that is also for me.  When I go to public restrooms or take selfies I feel confident that I look pretty in what I’m wearing. I feel prepared to meet new friends that will upgrade my quality of life. I am excited to meet new people that will bless my work-life balance. They will want to be around me because taking one look at me, I refresh them. Since I refresh them, I am able to feel good about myself. We are able to bounce off of each others energies because we both make an effort to feel pretty and comfortable. I may not fit in all that I plan to say to new people, but my outfit and style says it all. I am the fun and loving girl who they will never feel like they are wasting their time with and I am pretty for me. ​

    When I dress for other people, I don’t feel like I’m good enough. When I don’t wear the things that I want to wear those items don’t reflect who I want and feel to be.  I am forced to wear a piece of clothing, but it makes me feel like a copy when I identify as an original. It may make me feel too revealing. It makes flesh-centered people want to touch me or be around me so they can imagine they are touching me. They choose to not have self control over what they see. They do not value me for my heart, opinions, and ideas, but they value my physical appearance and my body only. Since there are many beautiful people all over the world I will soon be replaced in their life once I am able to speak my mind.  Healthy relationships with people are all about being able to share between each other openly and freely with more understanding than judgement. I am able to be myself and feel comfortable. When I am not myself, I am at risk for losing myself and forgetting who I am. Sometimes it can be for the better, but a lot of the times it is for the worse. As I lose myself in the revealing clothing that is picked for me and the clothing that I feel pressured to wear, I lose my spiritual innocence. A uniform can give a sense of belonging, pride, recognition, organization, and minimize the pressure for poor kids to fit in with the latest clothing.  If you need to wear a uniform, don’t lose yourself in it. Wear it respectably by ironing it, sewing the rips, and taking away the lint. You can still wear a uniform and be seen as an individual by your personality. Treat people kindly without sarcasm and making yourself seem smarter than they are by pointing out their faults. There is a way to communicate with people that makes people empowered to grow instead of making them feel as if they have fallen short of excellence. 

     Pretty For Me. When I don’t feel good enough the best thing in the world is to be able to put on whatever I feel comfortable and alive in….and take a selfie. And save it to my gallery without sharing it with anyone but myself. Instead of not sharing because I don’t feel I am beautiful, I tell myself that I am beautiful. I am excellent. I am enough. I am more than enough for him. I am  content with my beauty. I am pretty for me. 

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