It's 2023 CurlFriends! Time has gone by so fast. We've been through so much together. I want to thank God for bringing me to this point. When I say that we've been through so much together, I really mean me and God. I really mean, the people closest to me. This is probably one of the first times that you've read a CurlyDollTati blog post. Building a brand has not been easy. Sometimes I'm literally not building it. I have my reasons. I don't always have the time or mental focus to work on my passions. I've got a job that drains me that pays for my housing. My job makes me tired and jittery on my time off. It's really overstimulating. Things don't always work out the way that I plan. I'm sure God has His reasons too. I challenge myself to not give up on me. It's been so long since I've wanted to turn my website into income. I want you to know that what you see here is all handmade by me and there is no money backing me up. I work full time as a cashier team trainer at a grocery store. It's taken me years to get to this point of 186 digital drawings published on my website. Part of me is ashamed that it's taken me this long to try to get to where I want to be. I must admit, I am still not where I want to be. I feel like my career has run stagnant and dry. The other part of me is very proud of what I have accomplished so far. I started at the bottom. I mean, I had nothing. I come from a single parent household and barely any support. The progress that I can see is not tangible in the eyes of a general audience. My progress is tangible in my own eyes and my own perception. I am proud of myself. I am proud of my hard work. Even though I must forgive myself for not accomplishing my goals and dreams yet, I've tried. That's what matters. I've not tried hard enough for other people, but I have tried hard enough for me. This year while everyone is making their New Years resolution collage I am taking time to thank God. I will not be creating a New Years Resolution collage this week. Maybe I will change my mind later. I have an old one from 2019 that I'm still working on. I have it hung up in my living room that I turned into a bedroom. There are a lot of things that I want to happen this year. I've wanted them to happen last year and the year before that. It's tiring honestly. It's tiring to expect certain things to happen and they don't happen because of money and time. I no longer want to push myself to that standard. I just want to follow my peace, be the best person that I can, and get all I can that is right and good out of life. I am Enough.
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Spiritual Meditation Through Yoga As A Christian Yoga. When I hear the word I think of stretching, relaxing, and becoming more flexible. I think of strength training, leggings, yoga mats, and fresh grass under my feet. I think of training my breath and being with other women who are interested in bettering themselves. When some people think of yoga they think of meditation with the word” ommm” which is supposedly the vibration of Earth and the sound it makes. Although I have no problem with recognizing the vibration of every living thing, I don’t agree with becoming connected to Earth in the absence of God. There is one God that made everything and if we keep denying the Creator and giving the credit to many different gods we are forfeiting Gods blessings on our lives. I cannot deny Christ, so I do not say “ommm”. It brings confusion about my spirituality to those who are unfamiliar with Christ's teachings. I am a representation of Christ. I am just as a disciple trying to spread the gospel. I too must live in this world where people are constantly shaming the word of God. People are constantly looking for my hypocrisy. I have to set an example. I have to be a leader for what I believe by following God fully and completely. If I could be relaxed enough to include yoga as a daily activity in my life I would. I would spend at least a half hour a day stretching and being awake, but silent to hear Gods voice. Right now I have only found enough time to include yoga in one hour a week. I could tell of a hundred excuses as to why, but it really all comes down to self discipline which I haven’t found for yoga yet. My first priority should be reading pages in the Bible everyday, memorizing scripture, and praying for people. I’m not going to lie to you. I have weeks where I read the Bible everyday and I have weeks where I don’t read the Bible. It’s not that I don’t want to. I just forget and become too involved in making a living and my personal needs. I need to remember to make God a priority in my life. This is one of the reasons why I go to church every Sunday. It is a refresh. It is not enough to simply go to church and connect with God just at church. As a Christian I want to connect with God every single day. This is how I grow with God and not only maintain my relationship with Christ but allow it to grow stronger. A relationship with Christ is similar to a relationship with a boyfriend or girlfriend in the respect that if you don’t grow the relationship and only maintain it, it suffers greatly. It is different because God will always forgive us. As Christians we never want to be in a position where we reject God because this is a very costly sin. Most of us worship in a church or in private. Some of us worship in public, but you might never know it because worship can happen in the mind with the thoughts we choose to think. It can happen when we take walks and runs. It can happen while we paint and it can happen while we meditate in yoga. With a posture that humbles ourselves unto the Lord, during yoga it can be a perfect time to worship. It is especially beautiful during our 10 minutes of silence which I like to include after ever yoga session. |
Author & IllustratorHi, I'm CurlyDollTati! Nice for you to join me. I am an illustrator from Southern California. My love for illustration was encouraged by many throughout my life. I was especially encouraged by my single mother who's nickname is Dolly. Growing up I had a love for fashion illustration. CurlyDollTati is a representation of me...Tatiana..and the vision that I have to create a world of diversity in art. Here all races of women can come together to celebrate what makes us unique. We can uplift each other. I can share my art, my experiences, and your story too. Email me at [email protected] Archives
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